Jumping in at the last here, but I really loved the above discussion.
Kara believes that she is a screw-up and given her role in Zak's death, has hard time trusting her heart and decisions made out of love.
I think this also means she feels unworthy of the Gods' love/redemption so I'm sure she has many moments of "Why do I even bother trying when I'm too far gone anyway?" Especially when she seems to be constantly thrown into peril by the Gods she so fervently believes in. I think her faith in the gods is strong, but her faith in herself is where the lack is...
She tries to sacrifice her love for Lee (and also there's an element of trying to force his hand) by saying she won't divorce...tries to submit to the very minimum of what is 'required' (because, really, if the gods know her, how could they expect more?) but then she almost dies anyway...and is still miserable (of course yes, She could have swung the other way...) so she decides to just throw in the towel. I'm sure she's had this push-pull before in many areas of her life!
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Date: 2011-08-28 06:25 pm (UTC)Kara believes that she is a screw-up and given her role in Zak's death, has hard time trusting her heart and decisions made out of love.
I think this also means she feels unworthy of the Gods' love/redemption so I'm sure she has many moments of "Why do I even bother trying when I'm too far gone anyway?" Especially when she seems to be constantly thrown into peril by the Gods she so fervently believes in. I think her faith in the gods is strong, but her faith in herself is where the lack is...
She tries to sacrifice her love for Lee (and also there's an element of trying to force his hand) by saying she won't divorce...tries to submit to the very minimum of what is 'required' (because, really, if the gods know her, how could they expect more?) but then she almost dies anyway...and is still miserable (of course yes, She could have swung the other way...) so she decides to just throw in the towel. I'm sure she's had this push-pull before in many areas of her life!